And for me, a putting away of a decade of utter chaos. But, there is a season for everything and more lessons than anyone could ever learn. And as for reason!? This is the decade it all comes together. I feel ‘born again, again’!?

Yes, I’m in love! And I do believe that ‘love is The Answer’ to all our ails. But, it is much more than that.

The past decade, though seemingly tragic to onlookers, has been an absolute miracle of blessing upon blessing. A testing ground of my faith in both God and man and, most fierce battle, in myself. More than anything, a healing of the ravages of adolescence!? Heck, what am I saying!? I’ve never had anything that could even amount to a grip on things!

Nonetheless, this year has been an epiphany. Literally, a decade of ‘prayer in action’ culminating to an incredible vision of hope and a future. I’ve come to conclude that if timing is everything then God Is Timing! lol

While I could do the ‘norm’ and reminisce of the past and reflect on the emotions, I, instead, see an incredible future. Perhaps hard to believe amidst all the troubles that abound. But, that is what the preparation was for.

¹⁰Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. ¹¹Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. ¹²For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. ¹³Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. ¹⁴Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, ¹⁵and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. ¹⁶In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. ¹⁷Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. ¹⁸And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.

¹⁹Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, ²⁰for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.

That was the scripture shown me at the beginning of a an incredible journey and has prepared me for the the one that lies ahead. And, He has answered the ultimate prayer, the one He would have accompany me. A vision so bright in my heart is being manifest before my very eyes and I am in awe!

It is my prayer He grant all I need to answer the call and fulfill the promise. Amen

If such is the case it would explain the inspiration in me this night. Thirty minutes into this eve of this new year, I just got off the phone with love. A voice that calms my soul and does warm this heart. And it terrifies me!

What makes me think I would be so deserving!?

“I have enough trouble focusing on my own life much less taking on the responsibilities of another.”

‘least that’s what they have said.

But, then, isn’t that the point!?

She has changed me. Opened my eyes to the reality of answered prayer. And opened herself to share in such a peculiar dream. I hope and pray you, my family may see in her even half as I. If you did you would see just how blessed I am to know her and how blessed I will be to make her my wife.

So, if you would, grant me this opportunity to introduce you to my fiance ….

‘Luz’

Continue reading Love Inspires Me! Does’t It You!?

Yes, this is a plea in every sense of the word. A plea to help calm this heart of mine as I enter into this challenge to change my life from the road I have been on and instead chase the vision God has planted on my heart. A vision that has come to an absolute battle of will that has been raging in me for a very long time. A war that has burdened many and has as many casualties. But, the reward is great and the solution quite reasonable.

I speak of an ultimate makeover of this life and the opportunity to provide for others to pursue that God given vision inside each and every one of us. Believe me, I know it’s there and He really does provide all the guidance and tools for any of us to pursue. In my case, the vision is well within reach, but, I can’t do it on my own. And so I ask;

Could you spare a prayer for the opportunity to see ‘prayer in action’?

It’s 4am and I am sitting alone considering the great blessing in my life that I have found in a tiny woman with the biggest heart I have ever known. And while I can’t contact her at this moment, I feel the need to express what she is to me. But I have not the words in my culture so I went searching in hers. This is what I found.

Luz, you are not alone. I love you, babe.

Step One: Start with the Reward! Get the Girl!  (cost: $2500)

Yes, that’s what I said! She’s the inspiration that makes it all happen! The answer to the prayer! The one who completes the vision and makes the dream manifest. However, there’s an issue with distance?! Just a mere 8231 miles!?

OK, she’s in the Philippines…(pause for shock value) and she already said, ‘YES!’ (ok, take a drink of water)

I think God has a great sense of humor. We should learn from it! But, really…

I have known ‘of’ her since February and spent the better portion of my waking hours over the past 7 months ‘getting to know’ all I need to know in order to know that she is the ONE. (what would you expect me to say?) And should you choose to lend me your ear, I will tell why!

However, bare with me here for a bit.

Step Two: Get a New Grill!? (cost: $1500)

For the sake of self confidence if anything. I’m not going to be a one toothed redneck at the alter! (lol) But, mostly for the sake of health both now and in the future. Neglected my whole life, I have opted to trade them in on some falsies. A nice shiny set of Filipino porcelain hand made in the South Pacific. Comes complete with a spicy hot 4′11″ 24/7 nurse to boot! (reference above)

Step Four: Launch an Empire! (cost: $500)

If you can’t get the market to come to you, go to the market! The Philippines represents the largest and fastest growing market for online social networking in the world that shows little sign of slowing. With much reconsideration of the ‘vision’ I call “eyetalk”, I am taking my online investments to a place that knows how to make it happen without investing anything more than time and resources, of which I have plenty. (that is, at this moment I do)

Step Five: Move the House! (cost: $500)

In preparation of the renovation and storing away the old. Spartan will be moved to the country to be dealt with for the return. Objective here is the clean break from the old and a return to a clean slate. A rethinking of usage is in order and I am looking for the input of the one asking to share this space with me.

Step Six: The Baby Sitter! (cost: $150)

The original answer to prayer and yet another example of God’s sense of humor. The most beautiful Pitt Bull on the planet and my ‘not so little brown’. 85lbs of muscle and bones of steel makes an intimidating task to accept. But, 10 minutes with her will change your mind about the breed. But, I can’t give her up. She’s coming back home ASAP! She saved my life a second time and established in me a purpose. And, I don’t think Luz would have it any other way.

Step Seven: Praise and Worship! (cost: $0)

I give full credit to Him. I will praise Him every step of the journey and devote my life to the responsibility of His Blessings. I shall worship Him all my days in a life of appreciation. And! Testify of His only begotten Son. I shall walk in the wisdom of His Holy Spirit and pray should I accomplish anything, it be to His glory!

So, what’s holding me back!?…..$5150.00 USD!

And herein lies the miracle!? Welcome to ‘eyetalk’!

My purchase and I do have title!!!

This is the homestead right after I purchased it. I have since done some work on it which pramarily is the roof.